Monday, June 15, 2009

What I Have Been Thinking



In the 2 years since I was diagnosed with Celiac's disease and a gall bladder polyp I have been in pain so often (every other week for most of the time,) that after my last cold not only could I not kick the congestion, but my adrenals have not been able to keep up. This leaves me down, again. The frustration of wanting to be healthy and productive when I am only left with lying around either holding my stomach while it is in pain or just unable to carry on gets me emotionally down.

As I struggle with the natural occurrence of poor me, I suddenly start seeing others who are worse off then I am. Whether it is homelessness, death, war, or someone who is blind to their own hatred for others, I am faced with the reality that I have life. I still have the right and the ability to think for myself and I can continue to grow as an individual. I am always hoping that I will never stop seeing myself as both a member of society and an individual always in need of improvement, always in need of loving my neighbor. Loving others is for my own good. Loving others is for others good. Loving others despite their show of anger and hatred for me is good for the whole world.

I'm not a peace at all costs kind of person. I fail to see how not fighting, no matter what, will bring peace. When someone wanting to kill you because you are inconvenient to them, or you do not think or believe as as they do, and you do not act with physical force, when physical force is being perpetrated on you will only lead to the bullies of this world owning this world and oppressing all others.

My point isn't specifically about physical force. Recently, a celebrity told fans on Twitter that the Creation Museum made him angry and that anyone who believed the world is only 6,000 years old are to stop following him. This brought on accusations that he was prejudge. He said those using the word were using it wrong. He is the example of anger and hatred I am talking about. He honestly believes that he is right and that he is not displaying hatred.

I am puzzled. I am unable to see how I can reach someone, when that someone has shut me out. I fail to see how he or anyone who acts as he has will convince me that they are right. They turn their back behaving as if I do not have the right to look at the facts and decide for myself what those fact mean to me. Being passionate is one thing. Using that passion to close in your world serves only to close your mind.